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First LiveJournal ever!
Hey everyone~

I'm Team-Megan. You may recognize me from Deviantart or Kataang Forever. But it you don't, hello anyways.
I'm a huge kataang artist. I love doing pics from people's fanfics (rhyme-age yo)
But yeah, I'm more of a realistic sketch artist other than that. I'm a pre-med student and I love science-y things.
I got on Livejournal after some people convinced me. I'll prolly post rough sketches here I dont post on Deviantart or KF.

If you'd like to browse my gallery on Devart:

My user name is still team megan on KF, fanfiction, and deviantart. of course.

So, not only will this be a place for me to post some sketches, fanfics, and essays, but I would like to just have a place to write about what's going on in my life, because facebook is like.... dumb.
Right now, I'm a freshman in college. My second semester is almost over... and I think I may be falling in love with a friend of mine. :3
Little background on me: I've dated alot of my closer guy friends in HS= worst idea ever. My longest relationship so far has been almost 6 months. Not a fun time... (Im straight BTW...)

But yes, this friend of mine is in my chem lecture, lab AND statistics classes. I started crushing on him around the time the second semester started. I thought he was really cute, but I didn't think it would go anywhere. so one day in class, I had to sit next to him, since it wa the only seat open. and he introduced himself, asking if I was in his lab too. We started talking and sitting by each other everyday. Then he asked me for my number, saying that just in case one of us missed class... you know, we'd at least have someone to call about what was missed...  a little obvious, right?
Well, he started asking me if I wanted to get together to do homework and stuff. then one time after we had lunch together, he texted me later, asking me if I would go out with a friend of his. I didn't know this friend, and I said No, since I didn't know the guy. He asked if he could give the guy my number, So I said yeah, sure. I never did get a text from this guy, but whatever. But when he told me about this guy, I kinda... told him I liked him instead, and he was like "What? srs?"
But then he told me he'd actually started dating a friend of his, but he insisted that we still be friends. so we kept doing what we were doing- meeting up and hanging out. Nothing changed, he still acted the same around me. Much to my surprise.
So one day a week or two ago, this girl he said he was dating mentioned her boyfriend, referring to another guy. Caught me off guard for sure.
so I asked him about it and he said it didn't work out. He was always complaining about her anyway and how she never did her homework or the lab and bugged him about it.
Lately we've been hanging out more. He doesn't live on campus and he has a job, so I only see him on campus in class and when we work together. He's been opening up to me more, telling me more about his family and stuff and stating his opinions on things. so we've found out we're more alike than I thought.
Every time I'm with him, it just feels... right. I'm clumsy and awkward and can't say the right thing half the time, but that's normal, right?
It's like finding this best friend you've never had. And sometimes he'll say something... and I'll just... I don't know how to explain it. It's like I'm falling for him even more then. :3 he's sweet and funny and smart. He always laughs and teases me about little things.
I'm a Christian, so I prayed alot about this. When I started feeling even more... "right" about it all, I begged with God to at least let him be that best friend I've always wanted, the kind of friend you fall in love with.
All my romances before were so superficial. With him, I just have this feeling... like I would do anything for him, just to see him smile. I wouldn't mind spending forever with him. I know, I know. Cliche, infatuated, schoolgirl.
But it's not like that.
I know he could be anything he wanted to, because he's just that way. His heart is so amazingly like mine, that I feel this attachment to him I don't even understand yet. In my heart I know I would be there for him no matter what. and I've only known him for a couple months.
He's talked about alot of stuff that's physically wrong with him, and I just get this feeling in my chest, like I woudl do anything to take that away. I'd find a cure so he wouldn't have ot be scared of it. He told me scoliosis runs in his family and sometimes his dad is so down and out with it that it scares him, because he doesn't want to be that way. And right there, I was angry, angry that he was scared so much by this. I would do anything to take that away.
He's just... amazing. But I don't want to ruin it by pushing myself on him. so every time he surprises me by being the first to ask me if I want to hang out, I'll just keep hoping that maybe he feels the same.
I'm  so scared I'll ruin the great friendship we have, so I won't tell him anytime soon. I'll just let God work his magic I guess. :D

But yeah, that's what's going on with me right now. My finals week is soon, and I have to work after that in the summer. I work at an orthopedics company. It's an awesome experience. Can't wait XD

peace out everyone. :D


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